Choices

CHOICES14/2/19

Jesus knocks on the door of our hearts but it our choice to open our heart for Him, for His voice, basically what I am saying is that it is our choice to be obedient the one thing I learned is the He is a gentleman and He will not force Himself on us. 
You can choose to be a child of God and live according to His word. We can choose to be happy or sad, we can choose to be a blessing to someone or not. We can choose to be chained up or be free. It I not easy to smile while your heart is crying, the decisions we make today will affect our tomorrow, not just for ourselves but for everyone around us. Today i may fall but how soon is get up is up to me, no one can decide for me to get up. Hold on to all that is bad or find something good, you life will change either way. 
I have the desire to be who He wants me to be, to make a difference big or small
A few months ago I felt I am not good enough for God to use in any way, I felt empty and alone what I didn’t know at the time was that He has other plans for me. He wanted me to spend time with Him so He can prepare me. Me being me I didn’t feel like it, could not see anything other than what I was experienced at the time. The one day He send someone my way, and little did I know, still nothing from my side, again He send the same person my way, what happened that day was just amazing, I knew what I was seeing and feeling was Him. Fear and all I decided to trust Him with this and as true as bob He laid this person on my heart to pray for, oky I did that but soon after things changed. I chose to pray for this person and believed that it was all He wanted from me, thoughts and feelings started popping up, just like popcorn, then fear comes… Fear that I’m doing it coz I am me and because she is what she is not who she is, I’m not good enough, I will mess it up, I have to make a decision if I am going to let fear win or if I want to get over it. At the end of the day it was up to me…If I chose to ignore what God wanted me to do I would have missed out on a big blessing, but I also know I could not have done this without Him by my side. 
Our thoughts become words and the words we speak carries so much power, we don’t realise it until it is too late. Choose the right words no matter what the situation, speak life, speak God’s word.